Beware of the Doubt-Seeders

You are, and so is every single person on the planet, Divine. This Divinity is stored inside of every cell of your body, waiting to be utilized. Each person can choose to ignore their innate Divinity, or to nurture and grow it. By walking on your spiritual path, you are already making the choice to utilize your Divine Essence. One of the testing processes that you will have to encounter on this pathway is related to doubt. As you gain confidence in your abilities and start have breakthrough moments, there will be a time when you start to notice your hidden doubt causes you to question what is going on around you. This is completely natural, and a great way for you to understand your own discernment. Discernment is absolutely necessary to move beyond a certain point on your path. However, what is not necessary is doubt.

At this time of learning discernment, you will also be faced with people, whom I will term “Doubt-seeders.” This process of doubt-seeding is not malicious or even purposeful much of the time. But, it is an energetic dynamic you would want to be cautious around. If there is someone in your life, a friend, family member, teacher, colleague, etc., who is sharing messages/guidance that causes you to doubt yourself, then this is simply your sign to be mindful of what is being said and how it makes you feel.


Doubt is the way of the Ego, and along with pride, it is one of the Ego’s biggest tools to stop your spiritual development process. Remember, you are already Divine, you are not working toward this, it simply is. However, doubt-seeders will cause you to question yourself, and cause you to question what you know to be true for you. Doubt-seeders may or may not have direct contact with you, this doubt-seeding can also come down through a pipeline of communication (Gossip, through a third party relaying a conversation, etc.).

If you can look at the doubt-seeders from the perspective of your Divinity, you will see that they are playing a role, and that role is to assist you in removing all of the doubt from your system. For, when you no longer react to what has been said to you or about you, then you have completed this lesson of doubt. However, if you are finding that after such a discussion or conversation with someone, that you are left doubting yourself, or left doubting another person, AND you feel that doubt takes you to a place of confusion, anger, fear of moving forward or something similar, then this is your signal that you have just connected with a doubt-seeder. Once you know that, you can begin to shift back toward trusting in yourself and your own Divinity.

The spiritual landscape is changing, and has been for many years now. Sure, we still need to practice discernment and to monitor our energy fields, that will not change any time soon. However, if you are in a state of worry, fear, anger, mistrust, confusion or other such emotion after a conversation with another person, then you are in the midst of this lesson about doubt.

Examine the situation with love, ask your heart how it can best release this energy of doubt, and then thank the doubt-seeders in your life for helping you with this grand spiritual test. If allowed (by you) to grow in your etheric body, doubt becomes an anchor, anchoring you in the energy you so badly wish to transcend, and also anchoring in your auric field attachments from the doubt-seeders around you. For if you allow a doubt-seeder to influence your truth, it is no longer you who has the power to make decisions in your life, as you have subconsciously given your power away to them.

Only you can discern if this is happening (or has happened) to you; by Universal law, no one is permitted to tell you what to do (or not do), or who to work with (or not work with). In fact, if someone is telling you such things, they are not only playing this role of doubt-seeder, they are also accruing a heavy energetic debt for themselves.

You are here to learn about YOUR Divinity, YOUR heart energy, YOUR love that you share with yourself and others. No one else has the power to tell you how to think, who to connect with, or what to believe, and if any one does so, energetically thank them for their role as a doubt-seeder and send them unconditional love from your heart. It will change the energy of that situation, and assist you greatly in passing a very important lesson along your own spiritual path.

The Year I Gave Up Reading Books

For many years of my life I was a veracious reader, spending entire weekends lost in the pages of a good book. I would read fiction and non-fiction books, moving from one to the next.

One year around Christmastime, my boyfriend asked me if I could remember the details from a certain book about meditation. I could not. Then he asked me another question about a different book I had just finished, and I could not recall the details either. It was at that point, he made a suggestion to me that was extremely eye-opening. He asked, “Why don’t you try to give some time between books? So, the information can really sink in.”

Honestly, I hadn’t thought about that before. For so many years, I would move from one book right to the next, usually without much thought about why I had chosen to read the book in the first place. That was when I realized that books had become a distraction for me. What had started as a way to educate myself about spiritual topics, had now become a way for me to get so distracted in the learning process that I did not allow for time to assimilate the new knowledge into my life.

So on that New Year’s Day of 2007, I decided I was going to take a year off from reading books. I didn’t know it at the time, but there was truly nothing finer I could have done to speed up my spiritual development.

All of a sudden, I not only had more time, but also discovered that my thoughts were more focused and my intuition became clearer. I was able to listen to my guidance in a way like never before.

Did I miss books? Yes, for the first 3 months, I really missed them. However, the more I removed myself from them, the more I discovered that I had been missing out on connecting with myself and my guides. By the time the year was over, I didn’t jump right back into reading (even though I thought I would have). I had discovered something that was even better than connecting with the words and vision of another person, and that was connecting with my own.

Why I Don’t Have A Bucket List

I actually created a bucket list once, in college; it was filled with things that at that time in my life I thought were important. When I think about those items on that list, I realized I accomplished many, if not most of them within the preceding 10 years.

That was when I realized I am not someone who thinks in the scope of a lifetime, so how can it be possible for me to think of all the things I would like to accomplish in the many remaining years of my life.

Add that to my tendency to be an over-planner (my Ego LOVES to plan, organize, list make and so forth), and I decided that I am going to stop feeling like I should have a bucket list.

So, now you might be wondering, how do I think about what I do want to accomplish? As a part of my spiritual practice, I truly try to focus on living in the now. Therefore, my goals and aims are going to be based on what is happening from one moment to the next.

I have what I call a Spirit Mailbox. It is an old mailbox that used to hang on my grandfather’s front porch. I have a picture of an angel on the front, and once a month on the New Moon I look inside of it. I include both ongoing requests, like continued happiness in my relationship, and also new requests, such as manifesting financing for a new wellness center.

The requests, or spirit mail, go in the box whenever I have the intuition to put them in there. Each month on the new moon, I go through and take out the spirit mail that has manifested in my life, and keep the ongoing, and yet to physically appear, requests in there.

This experience has helped me to think in smaller, more manageable goals, which for me has created more peace in my life. The long term bigger goals are in there too, but still only for the next 10 years or so. This is simply because as I grow and change as a person, I have new things that become important to me.

I know that if I still had that bucket list from college, there would certainly be things on there that I have no care to accomplish any more. For now, I am happy living in the moment, not thinking too far ahead and yet still keeping those next steps in my awareness.

On a side note, the Spirit Mailbox is not my idea. I have been using it since at least 2007, but cannot remember how I heard about it. I would love to give credit where credit is due, but simply have no idea how the concept came into my life.