Cracking the Facade – Perception Perfection part 2

This is going to be a different kind of post today. This post is my homework from Spirit to be more transparent and vulnerable, as to release my own perception perfection. As many of you know, I have a past life as Marie Antoinette. It is one of my most famous past lives, and I gotta admit, probably one I am least proud of. Throughout this year, I have been getting messages from others that I have not yet released all the Marie energy. This goes to show how large of an effect our past lives have on us, even when we know of them!

Last weekend, Spirit suggested to me to re-watch the movie, Marie Antoinette. This is the modern version, and while it doesn’t show everything, it is enough of a window into the lifetime to gain some new insights. There were three big takeaways from this viewing of the movie for me. 1) She kept herself in a state of indifference about what was going on around her. At some point, she was mature enough to be able to pay attention to the outside world, but she preferred to keep her blinders on when it came to the hardships of others. 2) She never had a handle on her emotions. She wasn’t in touch with what she was really feeling at any moment, and those moments when she did feel something, she just stuffed it right back down inside of her. 3) She had pride about her reputation. She was so very concerned with wanting to portray herself a certain away, and to not allow others to see any flaws or weaknesses.

When I reflect upon how her life has impacted mine, I can see that I am and have been guilty of all three of those points. I have been aware of the first 2 points more than the 3rd, and I have experienced all of them in numerous ways. Yet, it is that third point that has really hit home for me lately, hence this homework assignment from Spirit.

So, my homework is to share with you all of my vulnerabilities, challenges, and difficulties of the moment. Trust me, I do not want to share all of what is going on in such a public way, but when Spirit gives homework, it is a good idea to do it!

Since the beginning of this year, we have been experiencing financial challenges. We have had several times when we did not have much to eat, and we have been consistently behind on our rent payments. Thankfully, we have a very nice leasing office here (and have lived here for 8 years) and were able to make payment arrangements in the past. My mom has also been a great help to us when she was able to. And, now we are in a tough situation again with our rent. We had two big payments due to the apartments to keep our place. One was due on May 29th, and we have paid that one, due to the kindness of a client who paid early for a course. But, now we are approaching out next big due date of June 18th, and we still need $1800 to prevent eviction proceedings from starting. However, once that is paid, we will be caught up!

We have been pulling funds together all we can, even forgoing some important website bills to get the money together to make these payments. So far, we have been making it through, but always bringing us to the very edge. This has been teaching us many things, but most if all it has been about asking for help, being honest, and also trusting in spirit that a solution will arrive, even if in surprising ways.

This week, we did not have any food on Wednesday and Thursday, and thankfully a payment came in Friday to help us buy some food and get the website and email back up. As we were getting ready to go to the store, we looked out the window to discover the car was gone. We knew we were behind on car payments, and it had been towed away to be repossessed sometime in the early hours of Friday morning. We were able to borrow my mom’s car yesterday to help us with running errands. So, now we have groceries, but no car, and we are needing prayers and positive energy to help us get back on track with the remainder of what is due on the rent by Monday.

This is our Perfect Storm. In some ways, it is challenging us like never before, and that is a good thing for soul growth. But, we still have to live in this world where money is a requirement to pay for bills, rent and groceries! We have been calling this our moment of transcendence, and we have been persevering, and continuing to move forward with doing our work, despite what we have been experiencing in the material world.

Now, I’m certain there are some portions of this situation, that because of my past life as Marie, require me to be learning in this specific manner. I understand it all logically, but it is still very difficult emotionally to go through. Especially now, to lay it all out bare for you to judge and see with your own eyes. Marie felt so judged, and that fear of judgment carries through into my life now. It is one of my greatest fears to be judged by the world as a fraud, hack, joke, or even to be seen as speaking any untruth. Some of you may feel that way about me, and you are entitled to your beliefs. I am merely writing this post today to challenge my own beliefs about myself, to learn to be 100% vulnerable, and to share it all anyway, so I can break down the wall I have put up to protect myself from the world’s judgment.

So, I’m not sure what else I need to say here, other than I have shared my challenges with you. I have laid them bare and cracked open my Pollyanna facade to share what I have been experiencing. One thing that we all need to remember is that when someone is releasing their big past life energy that it is THE most difficult thing they will ever through in their life. But, once it is released and gone, they are free! I am hoping that by writing this today to be free from Marie’s influence for once and all!!!

Also, if you have been considering a course, session, coaching program or email report, I would so much appreciate it if you would sign up at this time. I am even offering a 25% discount on my biggest course, the 5-Day Intensive, which is also now available on Skype.

If you find yourself in a similar situation to us, know that you are in our prayers and thoughts, we ask ask that you hold us in yours. Thank you very much for reading.

Update June 17: We have now met our Rent obligations. Thank you all for your kind words and for the heartfelt messages I have received. I cannot express how difficult it was for me to share this post. I am overwhelmed by your generosity, kindness, and love! Thank you.

Karen

Perception Perfection

Throughout my work with Past Life Patterns I have come to notice a common thread throughout them all. This common thread is woven deeply in all past life experiences, and I call it Perception Perfection.

What is Perception Perfection? It is the quest to control how other people will perceive of you. Each one of us is trying in some way to provide others with a controlled perspective on who we are.

Perception Perfection

Everything you do conveys something to the world and to the people around you. Most of the time, the controlling factor behind why we do what we do is rooted deeply in our subconscious.

Based on our unique and individual past life history, we have lived through hundreds (or more) of lifetimes. What you have experienced most frequently within those lifetimes, becomes the foundation for your specific mix of 3 to 5 primary Past Life Patterns.

Each one of the past life patterns, carries a different expectation of being judged. Those various expectations of judgement can be physical, mental, emotional, spiritual, or any combination thereof.

Whatever you have an expectation of being judged about, is also representative of the ways in which you subconsciously judge yourself. That is the part that is so tricky.

Because much of our judgement is subconscious, we do not recognize it at first. However, if you instead begin to have awareness of your own mind chatter, and what thoughts/expectations you have about the perception others could have of you, this awareness can give you a great glimpse into your own pattern of Perception Perfection.

Why is it Perception Perfection? Because it is the effort we make to try to put forth a perfect facade. Sounds like an oxymoron doesn’t it? Well, it is. A facade is a false front, to be thought of like a mask; our controlled vision of what we want others to see.

However, by definition it is impossible to be perfect, because it is hiding exactly what we are judging ourselves for. The more we become aware of what we doesn’t want to share, the more the facade grows. The more the facade grows, the more susceptible it is to crack apart under its own perfectionism pressure.

That pressure to pursue perfection is based on how we are expecting others to judge us. Here is how that breaks down for each of the 16 Past Life Patterns.

Infidel: wants to be perfectly accepted despite their viewpoints; fears being judged for their beliefs.

Doll: wants to be perfectly accepted for their body; fears being judged for their appearance.

Monk: wants to be perfectly accepted by God; fears being judged for not being holy enough.

Victim: wants to be perfectly accepted for being skilled/smart; fears being judged for being incapable/unintelligent.

Savior: wants to be perfectly accepted for helping others; fears being judged for not helping enough people (or for not helping the “right” people).

Ruler: wants to be perfectly accepted for making the best decisions for everyone; fears being judged for the outcomes of their decisions.

Prophet: wants to be perfectly accepted because of the guidance they provide; fears being judged as being a fraud.

Scoundrel: wants to be perfectly accepted despite what moral lines they have crossed; fears being judged because of how they have skirted the law.

Merchant: wants to be perfectly accepted because of their ability to manage/control resources; fears being judged for not possessing enough resources.

Utilizer: wants to be perfectly accepted for their ability to discover/create solutions; fears being judged for not being able to solve all the problems in their lives/lives of their family.

Servant: wants to be perfectly accepted for their willingness to serve; fears being judged for not doing a good enough job.

Unwell: wants to be perfectly accepted for whatever state of health their body is in; fears being judged for their illness/condition/disease/dependence on others to care for them.

Warrior: wants to be perfectly accepted by showcasing power/strength; fears being judged for being soft/weak.

Outcast:wants to be perfectly accepted unconditionally for all parts of who they are; fears being judged (and therefore abandoned) by their closest inner circle of friends/family.

Agent: wants to be perfectly accepted despite their challenges with trusting others; fears being judged by authority or “powers that be.”

Creative: wants to be perfectly accepted for their creative expressions; fears being judged as being untalented.

These are just a very small taste of the energetic dynamics for each past life pattern. As you can see from each of the shared examples, our perception perfection is directly connected to our subconscious expectations of being judged in a specific manner. Deep down, it is also precisely the way in which we are judging ourselves. The only cure for Perception Perfection is self-acceptance!

When you are ready to learn more about the Past Life Patterns you hold (and how to transform them), take the Past Life Quiz.